October Feelings

Well October has been a weird one for me. I’ve felt sad and I know it’s because I miss my grandparents so much. My two grandmothers died a year apart in October. They passed away just a few days apart from each other. I’ve actually felt sad about it all.

I was looking into what the day of the dead was about in Mexico. It gave me all the feelings. It just made me miss them all. My first grandad died in 1997, just days after Princess Diana’s funeral. My other grandparents died just before the pandemic of 2020. It was a blessing and I hadn’t really thought about it all until this October.

October is always a hard month though. We put the clocks back on Sunday here in the UK. This means it’ll start getting dark around 4pm. That’s always fun. But I’m trying to be more positive over it. I still haven’t started the gym and that’s something I NEED to do one two levels 1. To get me fit and 2. to motivate me to get my ass out of bed earlier. I’m tired of just not doing anything and it’s starting to get to me

I’m trying not to get that seasonal depression though. Autumn and Winter are tough but getting older, they don’t feel as long as they used to. I always think if I can get through Christmas and New Year, I can handle the rest of winter.

I’m going to try and write one of these a month. Even if it’s one sentence. I need to get into sitting at my computer more and being active on it and not getting distracted by things

So yeah this month has been iffy but I’ve got through it. I can’t believe there’s only two more months until 2026. I’ve got some wrestling in December to look ahead to.

So maybe this autumn isn’t going to be THAT bleak and maybe I should be less negative!

YEAH!

Until the next time
XOXO